The Loneliness Behind That Latte.

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My social media is plastered with posts about coffee.  Pics of my Stewart’s Iced, or something I’ve been tagged in; cute memes, play on words, or themed t-shirts.  They are cute, and it’s true, I love coffee, but the reality behind my love for coffee is less than cute.  I live in a world where sleep is scarce, often getting 2-4 hours sleep over a 42 hour period. My workload is heavy, and my husbands multiple health challenges makes him  unable to help beyond the paycheck he earns to keep our family afloat financially and I am BEYOND grateful that he is able to do that so I can stay home with our boys .  While other moms post pictures of nights out “sans kids”, or show a chore completed or the lovely meal their husband fixed them I “like” them but inside I sigh because I know that is not something that is likely to happen for me.  My coffee is the only self care thing I really have.  The Venti Latte seems lush, and lovely and a bit extravagant but in reality it is all he really has as means of helping me.  Often times it is handed to me on his way to bed for the day/night.  So while most women chat with their partner about the days events, or they all do something as I family on a Saturday, my husband is tucked into bed while my kids and I carry on. His presence missing, he says he hopes the coffee at least is a help and he says it is his way of trying to show he cares, even when it looks like he has all but hidden from us.  I joke about my coffee consumption as a means of making me feel a little less like crying, and it keeps me from unloading my real situation on the poor person who asks in passing at church “Hey how are ya?”  But the reality my coffee is the earthly thing that helps sustains me when there are miles to go before I sleep.
Now the real factor to my ability to stay the course, however sloppy the results may seem to the outsider, is my faith in Christ, but that is a post in and of itself!!!

 

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Horizons Week Two Review!

We made it through week two, a few sick days, but all in all we had a great 2nd week.  The workbook intensity is beginning to pick up so that is good, although we are finding some of it rather repetitive for being a “spiral” styled curriculum. Keep up with our Homeschooling journey with our weekly video updates!!!

Virtual Homeschool Co-op!!!!!!

I’m IN!!!! So excited to be participating in the Virtual Homeschool Coo-op with an awesome group of homeschooling mamas!!! This is my intro video, bare with me I am still learning 😉 I will be posting videos as the assignments for the Co-op dictate, i will still post my regular post for you non homeschoolers who follow my blog 🙂

This response video is my part of the Virtual Homeschool Coop Channel Collaboration. You can find out more at http://www.virtualhomeschoolcoop.com The goal of the Virtual Homeschool Coop is to build the homeschool community of knowledge with collaborations to give voice to all experiences in homeschooling.

Blessed!

Today I was in contact with Newman Medical, the makers of the Digidop Fetal Doppler.  One retailer describes them as “bulletproof” (figuratively I am sure lol) Mr. Newman suggested the DigiDop 700.

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What is that?  Well here is what they had to say about it!

The DigiDop 700 WATERPROOF Display Doppler has unique features not found in other Doppler systems such as Digital Optimized Processing (DOP™). Each DigiDop is designed with the sensitivity you need while also designed to be tough and last through years of everyday office use. All our products are  Made in the USA outside of Denver, CO. Each Newman Medical Doppler and probe must pass a series of comprehensive tests to assure quality and the durability of each product.

Features:

  • Display Hand Held Doppler
  • Tough and durable polycarbonate and stainless steel case
  • Digitally Optimized Processing – DOP™
  • Unbreakable magnetic probe holder
  • All probes are interchangable
  • Each main unit comes with choice of one probe (I am getting the waterproof model)
  • User replaceable cable
  • Powered by 3 AA batteries
  • Extended battery life
  • Manufactured in the U.S.A

I am feeling so blessed right now!  There is alot of hype right now about the use of dopplers for maternity care, and I have strong opinions about that, which is certainly a blog post for another day.

Well my loves, I must sign off but wanted to fill you in on how God is blessing.
Much LOVE!

Go Into All The World… My journey into Midwifery

For years the desire of my heart has been to be a midwife, to serve women in a time when they need someone the most.  God began to speak to me about overseas service and I felt compelled to say YES… whenever You are ready.  I have always thrived in a situation of urgency.  When there would be a “crisis alert” or “Code” at work I would feel the adrenaline start to flow and I would get in that ZONE.  My first ever blood draw was during a code, I was shoved to the bedside and had orders to draw 4 vials of blood and blood cultures (a weird sterile procedure, that has to be done JUST SO) yelled at me with a room full of Drs, nurses, RTs etc.  I did it, first attempt and I remember thinking that God had blessed me with a gift, of a) finding the unfindable vein, and b) keeping cool under pressure. 

Skip ahead 6 years.  Married, 2 kids, hectic life.  God begins to stir in me the desire he placed within me years before.  The midwifery bug bit, and now I lay awake at night thinking about how it is I am going to fill this call.

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The Global Organization of Midwives along with the a mainstream missions organization are equipping healthcare workers with vital skills, education, and support, so they may go where there is great need. As a family, we are teaming up with them, and next September I am starting formal midwifery and Missionary education,  with an academic focus on the global maternal health crisis with the intention of going overseas, to be the hands and feet of Christ, providing dignified, lifesaving, maternal healthcare to the women who need it most. 

I will be doing one of my Midwifery Clinical Placements at a charity birth center overseas to refine my midwifery skills but also to learn emergency management in remote areas / the out of hospital setting which requires a very specific skills set not often seen in the US.

We had photos taken today, compliments of Heartfelt Photography that will be used for Prayer Cards.  These will be sent out to those who wish to pray for us, get updates on what we are doing, or if so lead, give to our mission.  I said to Ronnie today “This is starting to feel real” to which he replied “This IS real!” 

This year we will be raising funds, for the required missions training, the cost of the overseas missions trip/midwifery placement, and the cost of supplies; for a total of $10,000. We will also have to pay the cost associated with my Midwifery degree, licensing and exam fee, as well as our day to day living expenses.  We have started an amazon WISH LIST  with some of the books, equipment and supplies I am required to have, and will have a list of items that I will need to take with me to my placement (medications, linens, medical supplies, hand sanitizer, etc) that I will post if people want to be able to help when the time comes.  

Please continue to follow this blog, and pray for us as we begin this crazy life changing journey.  Additionally, if you attend a church who would be willing to hear our storey and pray for us please let us know!  

Love you all!

How to know?

I have been talking about my journey to Midwifery, and I think Ronnie and I have finally decided on where I am going to do my academics.  A lot of the programs were Diploma’s or Certificates, but this program will lead to a Bachelor of Midwifery ( BMid ) and focuses on not just midwifery but permaculture, sustainable living, and the Global Maternal Child Health Crisis.  My Midwifery skills conference that I have been excited about has hit a few bumps so I am now trying to decide if this is God closing the door on it, or if I just need to push through.

Bump 1)  My sitter for the two days just realized that is the week that they have mandatory training for work. ( a conference out of town)

Bump 2) FInances.  The cost of the workshop is $300 (if we pay by september 1st) and we were all for it but we blew a tire on friday, and  you can only drive on a spare for 45miles and so we will need to replace our tires (WAY overdue anyway) So that will take up any extra money we may have had allocated for my conference 😦

Now I have a belief that what God ordains will come to pass despite things seeming Humanly Impossible. He can provide tires, and money for the conference, and Childcare can fall into place!

Heres where you all come in! I am asking for people to pray with us,

Pray that God will provide the resources for me to go!

Pray that we find childcare for the duration of the course (2 days)

Pray that we get clear confirmation of what we need to do, and how to proceed.

Thanks guys for being here with me.  Love that the “body of Christ” can be felt via the web, modern technology is great!!

Jesus Lead on.

My vision seems so cloudy these days, and I mean my spiritual vision, I just got new glasses so my eyes are in perfect health LOL.  I have been in the word more than ever, and yet I cannot seem to get clarity on this one issue.  I posted previously about a stirring in my heart towards missions.  Well that has not go away.  My husband and I have thrown around a few ideas and scenarios, and I am slated to go to my midwifery skills course in October (funds pending).  Here’s how it all breaks down.  I feel like I want to be able to use midwifery on the mission field on a Trip by Trip basis, not career missions.  To do that I need to become a midwife.  There are possibilities for that to happen and we are open to them but they cost money. Then there is the opportunity to go to a charity birthing center overseas that does specific HANDS ON training for women desiring to be missionary midwives.  The cost to do that is humanly HUGE; $7,000-$12,000!  But then I think… really if it is God ordained it isn’t huge at all!  We have talked about different ways of doing it (me going alone, or them coming too) For about 4 years I have felt a pull to this area, and to the clinic specifically.   I  cannot see to get them out of my head.  They serve very poor women who cannot afford maternity care.  All care received is free of charge, and from what friends have told me who have been there, the care is fantastic!  The clinic relies on the support of Missionaries like myself coming to train and then after certification come back and volunteer.  They employ local midwives who work tirelessly serving these woman.  I ask you all to pray with me on the God’s timing to be revealed, and for the appropriate funding when the time comes.