It was a beautiful day, not to hot, just enough breeze. The baby and I were out on the deck and Aaron was sleeping inside where daddy was. Armed with an iced coffee and my bible I decided it was time to seek out God on a few things. I have had a stirring in y soul that I do not quite know how to satisfy. I have had my heart set on midwifery for a long time, but how, when and where is unclear. Also what this stirring in my soul is. So I started by inviting God to come and speak, specifically by listening to and praying the words of the song Speak O Lord. I then did the old “open your bible and let God choose a place for it to open” I ended up in Esther, my thought was “uh oh, this could get interesting”
But never the less I read and was open to what God would have me learn. I then decided to worship a bit more with Starfield’s Cry in my Heart. As I tried to reflect on the music, and what the passage was saying I kept hearing the phrase “My heart is steadfast O God, My heart is steadfast” So I flipped over to psalms to see what the whole passage was saying. This is what I see as i read through. (obviously it was not the first time this verse had spoken to me.)
As i read i was reminded of a vow I made to the Lord that I would go to “the ends of the earth” if he wanted me to. I began to wonder if my time to serve was going to emerge sooner rather than later. Then this verse came into my sight, on the adjacent page; “Then I will sing praises to your name forever as I fulfill my vows each day.” I Decided to ask God to speak again giving me a word, or image. I closed my eyes I couldn’t get a very clear picture and felt to open my eyes. As I did, an old, rickety, white and blue bus drove by. Ummm…. Ok God, please clarify. So i close my eyes, but again felt to open my eyes at which point a white cargo van drives by. Was God trying to speak through the Traffic?? I am waiting for more clarity, but in the mean time, I saw this image when watching a video about a charity birthing clinic in the Philippines. This is their ambulance
used for transporting moms or babies to the hospital in an emergency that is beyond what the clinic can handle. I do not want to read too much into things but it is a blue and white cargo van type vehicle (ie blue and white bus/White Cargo Van) Anyway I am not making any huge life decision yet based on the traffic lol but I will continue to pray. I would ask you all to pray as well.
***Disclaimer: As of right now neither of us have ever felt called to career missions,or even long term missions, rather a few short trips here or there using our respective skills. ***